How did you do this magic trick,
How you so touched and wakened me,
That when I think of your blue eyes
I see the endless starry skies.
Of your ineffable giving
Wonder - an actors' performance,
A singer singing a song, playing
All your heart to all around.
My dear, I know, I do it too,
With pen and paper, in a poem.
We've the gift of giving ourselves,
In spite of ourselves sometimes.
Shadow regrets flying in your face,
Ancient fears stirring it up in there.
I'm taking no shit, enough of this,
You're testy, on edge, tend to shout.
The demons are dancing now, my dear.
I toss at night with something unclear,
Sweat, cry, crack, tussle, and moan.
You can't sleep, too hot, you've got an itch,
Something is knocking around your head.
The demons are dancing now, my dear.
Got you by the throat, twist an arm,
Lay a low one in your gut, bend you.
Take a breath, take heart and purpose,
Hold on, we are going to win this.
The demons are dancing now, my dear,
Easy now, one on one, we'll take them,
Clear as day, clear as a bell, in time.
Sailing the deep blue dream,
Singing last liberty,
Only indigo dream.
No earthly care and toil
To grind me to the ground.
Only a ship, the sea
And me, my companion
The wind, and endless sky,
Bound for no port or home.
Sailing the deep blue dream,
Singing last liberty,
Alone indigo dream.
No more loving for me,
Too many times my heart
Broken, love left behind.
My mistress is the sea,
Carried upon her waves,
My vessel on her breast.
Sailing the deep blue dream,
Singing last liberty,
Lonely indigo dream.
Down and out survivor,
Long had I resisted.
Peace then a distant dream
Only, a surrender
Denied, longed for, the blue
Sea of serene release.
Sailing the deep blue dream,
Before me on an orange throne,
His nobility worn and scarred,
Was one with the riches I sought.
I followed him through depravity,
In equilibrium fell not.
I followed him through violence,
Learned to strike, and to roll it off
As beating rain rolls off a leaf.
I followed him through sorrow's pain,
Broke my heart again and again.
Still I followed, through endless nights,
And through despicable ruin.
He spoke of his freedom attained
In prison; it's trace shining through
The walls and bars he keeps within,
Saw his mortal contradiction.
All that he scattered I gathered
Along the tortuous route.
I was unable to convince him,
He is still there, in argument.
Now I've my riches, my freedom.
Remember the hill and forest, when young –
The green, the nightingale, colored perfumes,
Your native sky, your realm, not to be touched.
Come to me, battle-scarred and weary one.
Lay down your weapons, remove your armor,
Let me touch you - a breeze rustles the leaves.
Take my hand, adventure in the perfect
Wilderness of your hill, copse, thicket and
Sun struck clearings, take me to your refuge.
Battle-worn and lonely warrior, closer,
Lay down your arms and take me, take me there.
Breathe the green, the colored perfumes, taste peace
Sweet as spring water, the nightingale sings.
Taking the sun like a convalescent
Walk myself along the cliff, high above
The glittering sea, thundering surf.
So calm, so quiet, an eternal smile,
I'm perfectly alright. A broken heart
On the mend, patient and distracted.
I'll enjoy the sunset, admire the moon,
My brave recovery, in agony.
Pressing a question against the future
Wondering, as I always do, what will be;
What we will cook tonight,
Then, will you be awake when I get up,
Your eyes lit from the night, in the morning light.
Our days stretch, tumble, disordered, humored.
And I press a question again, again
Silently, in the quiet garnered from
The edges of our time spent together.
Through a long narrow window I look out,
Particularly when there's fading gold.
I am looking for the future to come
In from the withdrawing day.
Tonight you will be awake while I sleep
In bed struggling with the empty side.
Along with our morning coffee I garner
Touches, breathe loving looks over you, let
Desire sigh for one moment, pass over,
To this or that, pass the time, and wonder.
I'm always wondering, you know, silently,
Pressing a question against the future.
